I wonder what's wrong with me in this month, seems like everything doing good but still there's something interrupted me but I don't know what is it. People say new year new resolution, I guess this year I don't have any but the same old thing. Should I remain myself like this for now or what? I'm lost.
Currently realized that primary school standard 4 and 5 are studying the same thing as me in college; which we spend xxK for it and they just studying it in primary school without really paying any fees. Maybe there are some fees, but it's only for the books and some school stuff, it wont cost over 10K too. What's the feeling that a person ask what are you studying now and after you tell them they give you a shock face and telling you that primary school student are studying the same thing? Anyone have any idea? I not yet got into that situation before, but if I do, I guess I'll just dig a hole and hide my face inside. Some people told me that, even though they are studying it, but until the time they out from school is different world again. Actually even now the things that we studied in college are not usable in the real world too. Again the problem back to the cash, we paid over xxK but how much they pay? YES, I'm money minded, because my family is not a family that can take out cash anytime we want. Every sen we also have to count. Feel fucked up when knew this shit.
Other than the primary shitty thing, which is also because of that shit and I'm thinking, why am I in IT? I used to like or I say love IT a lot, but why after studying it seems like I've lost interest in it. Feels like it's not the thing that I wanted, not the thing that I wish for. I was having a big hope in IT when I first in college, but after all the things I studied, I feel like I'm just studying for the sake of the certificate. It doesn't have the feeling like the first time anymore.
I need someone who can give me advise which is the things that I don't know instead of telling me this is life.
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